Contradicting Thoughts and Realizations 

I went to a CA meeting on New Year’s Eve. The gentleman sharing was 21 years old. He had 5 years clean. I instantly judged him as not credible. He didn’t have enough experience. He didn’t have enough to lose.

Then he said something that instantly made me feel terrible about my judgments. “It doesn’t matter if you hit rock bottom or not we are all here for the same reason.” We go to meetings because we have a problem, we keep it anonymous to not be judged, we all agree we need help and that we cannot stay clean doing it alone. 

I felt horrible for having that initial thought, but that’s the point right? To catch ourselves if we do something wrong, recognize the error, and make it right. I realized this initial thought was silly based on one of my own beliefs. You only hit rock bottom when you die, if you are still alive there is still room for improvement. If you aren’t alive, you never have a chance to make things right. It doesn’t take a major life event to open your eyes to your addiction or a developing addiction. Sometimes all it takes is a realization that alcohol or drugs are causing you more pain then the pain you aim to escape from. Meetings are to give hope, to know you’re not alone, and something greater can help you conquer your addiction in despair. 

Pain is the touchstone of spiritual growth. It is important to stop pursuing whatever your idea of perfection is, you will never be happy if you aim for such an ideal. Find beauty in the littlr things. Happiness is appreciating what you have, not getting what you want.

Sobriety is a journey not a destination. I am excited to see what 2018 has in store for me!

#alwaysgettingbetter 

Mercury Retrograde – Is it all that bad?

Mercury goes retrograde this Sunday, the 3rd … Sure, you shouldn’t travel, communication with others will be a little off, and your electronics may go on the brink a few times. Yet within this phase there are also some benefits that shouldn’t be overlooked.

1.It’s easier to change your habits
In conjunction with the full moon on Tuesday letting go of any unpleasant habits will be twice as strong. The universe is empowering you to let go of what no longer serves you to make room for situations that compliment your goals. Not sure where to start? Choose a substitute for your bad habit, cut out as many triggers as possible, join forces with somebody, surround yourself with people who are living the life you want, visualize yourself succeeding, use positive affirmations daily.

2.A little introspection goes a long way to getting clarity
Take a little time for yourself; take a bath, read a book, journal, meditate. In today’s world, there are so many distractions and ideas coming at us from all angles. Every time I check my phone there are at least 5 new notifications for 3 different apps. Take some time for you. When is the last time you stepped away from distractions and just contemplated and self-assessed? Besides – electronics will be whack today anyway – so do yourself a favor and enjoy a little nature time.

3.New mantras adopted during mercury retrograde are super-powered
Mantras, affirmations, declarations, oh my! Whatever route you decide to go, now is the time. Super-power that self talk in a positive direction. My favorite mantra is “Aham Prema” I am divine love. This mantra affirms one’s divine love energy within, creating the highest essence of love. Help up your self-worth by repeating this mantra 108 times daily for the next 40 days. You can also use other mantras or positive affirmations, do what feels right for you. Shoot, by time you’re done Mercury will be out of retrograde!

4.Your creativity is off the charts
How do express your creativity? Do you paint, draw, doodle, journal, write a poem, write a book, scrapbook, take photos, dance, sing, sculpting, build something, design jewelry, crafts, make a candle or soap, garden, cook, make music, sew, knit, quilting, crocheting, and the list goes on. There are many ways to be creative and pick up hobbies. Find one that calls to you and simply begin.

5.You’re more intuitive
Your intuition will be firing on all cylinders during this phase. Test it out and nourish it. Here are a few ideas to do so.

  • Work directly with intuition – Find a comfortable seat. Follow your breath counting 1 on the inhale and 2 on the exhale. When you are relaxed identify an event or situation you’d like more insight about. Focus on that intently for a few minutes. Ask for a direct intuitive experience about it in the near future. -be in this moment – Let it go.
  • Work with indirect intuition – Get a piece of paper and a pen or pencil. Ask yourself, “what does my life need right now?” three times in a row, pausing between each question. Imagine you are going toward a more meaningful answer each time you ask. When you have finished asking, pick up your pen and draw one symbol on your paper. Interpret this symbol. What does it suggest you add, subtract, or enjoy from your life?
  • Learn to look for and pay attention to intuition’s subtly messages – Invest in your sixth sense. Imagine that your eyes, ears, hands, skin, emotions, and intellect could stretch out into the invisible world and captures sensations, information, inspiration, knowledge, and wisdom like a cable or cellphone captures invisible waves of sound and images. Let yourself walk through your day sensitive to other dimensions.
  • Choose a sense to work with – Make a date with yourself on your calendar and allow 2-3 hours. When the time comes, get in your car or other mode of transportation without knowing where you are going. Resist the first few ‘ideas’ you have about where you are going. Wait for the idea that makes your body very relaxed. Your body is the best barometer of what is right – if your choice arises from intuition, you will experience inner stillness, silence, and knowing it is right.

So Mercury Retrograde isn’t so bad – yet to be on the safe side here are some crystals to help ease the transition.

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