It’s done. It feels so bizarre when A LOT of time frees up suddenly. These past 5 months I have been finishing my bachelor’s degree in Nutrition. Three classes were independent study, this means you sign up for the class and you have up to one year to finish it at your own pace. In my case, to qualify for the grants and loans I received I had to finish them within the semester. The problem with self-study classes is getting the ambition to get the work.67 done. It’s so easy to distract yourself if there is something to clean or a friend to hang out with. Yet I couldn’t live in the present. Every time I was ‘distracting’ myself, the little voice in my head was disappointed with me.

It was a wild ride, but I did it. I managed to get everything turned in on time, passed my classes with mostly A’s and a B, and I should be receiving my degree in the mail next month…Yay me!

Now I feel like I’m twiddling my thumbs … I don’t know what to do with all this time. It’s been so long, I almost forgot what I enjoy doing. These last 10 days have been a roller coaster. The first week I was hit with a myriad of emotions. Everything that I had been suppressing for the last 5 months. It was overwhelming to say the least. Another moment of feeling a little ashamed at having not processed anything and letting it build up – I know better than that especially in a life of recovery.

Day 10, life is evening out. Still not sure what direction to go – looks like it should be back to basics. Sometimes we lose ourselves, in whatever it might be; the important aspect is the bounce back.

Breathing in inspiration, Exhaling disappointment. Breathing in perseverance, Exhaling self-defeating thoughts. Breathing in hope, Exhaling gratitude. Releasing with three sighs, knowing I am now connected to the Divine and am ready to step on my path.

Here is to remembering how to live in the “NOW” with happiness – Cheers!